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Thursday, July 12, 2007

Well, here is a little up date on my life. I am working at Iris Ministries. For those of you who don't know what Iris is, we are a ministry based in Africa founded by Rolland and Heidi Baker. It has been so much fun and incredible to see the hand of God working through the ministry. JESUS IS AMAZING! I am working at a little coffee shop also in the downtown area. It is a really interesting atmosphere to work in. You get many types of people in there all day long. Makes for interesting conversation with customers. I was planning to attend Bethel Supernatural School of Ministry this fall, but as of right now, the finances are low. God has plans for me, and whatever he is doing and has for me this year is going to be great. I was a little upset when I found out I was most likely not going to be able to go to school, but God is such a good daddy and I know he will take care of me.

I have really been going through so much. A lot of inner healing. I am really physically exhausted. I have been under an intense amount of stress, with my own life and my family. So much is going on. But something that is really amazing, is that I am able to see what God is doing instead of focusing on what he isn't. God is ONLY good. In the past, I would easily slip into depression, but this time I can totally see myself in the palm of God's hand. I have had incredible joy, and I have postured myself to have an attitude of thankfulness and to always see the goodness of God. There have been times over the past few months were I lost sight of what God was doing, but I easily changed direction and went back to "God is good". I have come to find that the biggest problem that I have had is when I try to take control of my own life and dominate the plans of God. There is a reason God is the divine designer of my life. If I was the author of my life, I would be in big trouble right now. I know he knows what he is doing, and just because is may not look like he is doing much right now, I know that behind the scenes he is doing a MIGHTY work.

I am in love with Jesus now more than ever, and my heart and longing for him only increases. It has been a struggle to find my alone time with him everyday, but it is very much needed. My quiet time with Jesus is what fuels me for my day. There is a peace that washes over me after being before him that stays with me all day.

So, that is a little update on my life...

P.S.
I cannot figure out how to add comments to my new layout yet, so here is my email... peanutbc_three@hotmail.com. LOVES!

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Well, here we are in 2007. It is almost crazy how fast 2006 past by and I don't think this year will be much different. Alot of my friends have asked me what my "New Years Resolution" is, but to there dissapointment, I never made one. (I always thought those things were kinda stupid.) But it made me start to think about what I really want for this year. The only thing that really matters to me is to be totally abandoned to Jesus. I want to live in his love. I want to live free from fear. I want to dance in complete freedom. I want to walk in his grace and unconditional love. As this New Year is ushered in, there is such a deep cry of desperation that comes from my heart and a hunger for all that he is and all that he has. My love for him grows each moment, and the love he has for me blows me away. I am after his heart. I want to be know as a lover of God. That is what I want for 2007.

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed.
Romans 8:19

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Monday, February 27, 2006

Last night my friends, Phina, Sarah, Tiffany and I all went down to Santa Rosa (Santa Rosa is about an hour from where I live, and you have to travel over two mountains in order to ge there) to go to the Barn (a soaking room). We had an awesome time, just sitting in the prescence of God, fun stuff!!! We left the barn around 10ish, and went to Safeway to get dinner. After Safeway, we headed home, it was after 10:30 pm. We had gotten over the first mountain and were headed up the second, when Sarah turned around because the gas tank was on empty. We got about 2 miles away from the nearest gas station when the truck died, by this time it was a little after 11pm. We didn't know what else to do besides walk to the gas station to get a gas can, and fill it with gas. Phina stayed on guard and the rest of us walked to the gas station. It was pitch black and pouring down rain, and we didn't have jackets or anything. It took like 20 mins. to get to the gas station, because we had to take a few pee brakes on the way. So we finally got to the gas station, and guess what, they were all out of gas cans. It was funny but at the same time we were soaking wet and tired. We were trying to find something that might hold gas, but they kicked us out because they were closing. So we stood outside trying to call our friend Joe who lives in Calistoga, but Joe wouldn't answer his phone. (It was around 12:15 am now.) So we decided that it was time to call the cops. Tiffany was on the phone for over 10 mins. with the 911, telling them our location and all that good stuff. Finally, after 12:30, the police came and picked us up. He took us to the Shell gas station, which was a few minutes down the road. We went insided to buy a gas can, and the didn't even carry gas cans. Luckily, they had one in the back that was used, and he let us borrow it. The man at the counter wanted us to give him $20 to hold till we got back to give back the gas can. But all we had was a debit card and $7. So he took the $7, which was Tiffany's, and let us go. Whe finally got back to the truck, and it was after 1 am. The cops helped us put the gas in the tank, because we couldn't do it. Oh, I forgot to mention that we got this whole fiasco on video, oh yeah!! After they finished, we went back to the Shell station to return the gas can so Tiff could get her $7 back, then Sarah filled the tank up the rest of the way, and we headed back on the road. We got home a few minutes before 2am, and went to bed. It was a long night, but it was so much fun.............

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Sunday, February 26, 2006

I have been thinking about the poem I put on my blog by e.e. cummings. The last five words have been on my mind for weeks, "... only dying makes us grow."Every time I read this part, I think of jumping off a cliff, free falling, and on the way, letting go of everything I hold on to, and landing on my feet on solid ground, and then moving into the divine plan and purpose that awaits me. Walking in the freedom that was mine from the be

gining. I jumped off the cliff, but I am still in the "Free Falling" phase. God is definatley working on me though, and the ground is not far away, I know it.

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

am was. are leaves few this. is these a or
scratchily over which of earth dragged once
-ful leaf. air theres what immense
live without every dancing. singless on-
ly a child's eyes float silently down
.We're
alive and shall be: cities may overflow(am
was) assassinating whole grass blades
but we've
such freedom such intese digestion so
much greeness only dying makes us grow

e.e. cummings

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Monday, February 13, 2006

Today is my brothers birhtday. He is 19! So Happy Birthday David!! Love Ya!!!

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